Sunday, January 01, 2006

A Night to Forget...I'm Trying

I was right - it was a night to forget, or at least one I'd rather forget, with little bits of good spotted about, thanks mostly to Bambi. Happy New Year to all you people out there. But first, the countdown to JR has begun - eight days!

Do I have resolutions? Possibly, but I haven't made them yet. Do I have goals? Yes, but I can't achieve them. How am I? Steady, but I'm starting to shake. Did anyone catch that reference? So what do I have? A song that's been stuck in my head for at least 12 hours.

She said "I’m not pointing fingers"
He said "Yes you are
'cause you wouldn’t bring it up if you weren’t
If I told you I’d been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcoholic’s word?
I can’t change what’s done is done
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I
Don’t curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to
While this part of me is dying
And though I haven’t kicked the demons
That haunt me
I’m trying
I’m trying

She sat down on the floor
And said "I wish I was stronger
Right now I feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you
Believe what’s held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts
That keep on coming back
My parents think I’m crazy
For staying here this long
But there’s nothing more I want for us
Than to prove to them they’re wrong
I don’t want to be afraid
I don’t want to think you’re lying
And though I haven’t found the faith
That I need
I’m trying
I’m trying

He asked "Do you want me to leave
’cause if you do you know I will"
But she said much to his disbelief
"No I love you still
Oh I love you still"

He said "I don’t know why I’ve been the fool
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I
Don’t curse myself and all my sins"
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said "I haven’t been the man I want to be
But I’m trying
I’m trying
I’m trying believe me
I’m trying"

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